I am a(n):

White, nearly 30-year-old, cisgender woman.
Unapologetic Fatty.
Self-medicated mess.
Foodie.
Hairy, new-ish [lazy]Femme.
Slut.
Misandrist.
Childfree, straight-presenting, house-spouse /slash/ Dog Mom.
Liberal.
Intersectional Feminist.
Collector of interests.
Survivor.
Game lover.
Writer.
Wanna-be nail artist.
"Young" Denture Wearer.
Abortion-supporting Witch
"Texan trying to live a better, shame-free life in one of the toughest places to do that." [via]

...and this is my personal blog.

Here are some posts I've tagged 'About Me' that may provide more insight into who I am.

Here are my "vlogs."

If you know me "in real life," READ THIS!, and know this:

"There are a lot of things about me that aren't what you thought. But if you love me, you have to love all the things about me." -- Frances "Baby" Houseman

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I think a lot of people who commit suicide just want to end the pain; they don’t really wanna die, they just wanna end the pain.
Iyanla Vanzant

Out of the Darkness Suicide Walk!

fiestacolours:

Hey Tumblr!  Help my family’s team!!!

http://afsp.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.team&eventID=1347&teamID=26660

My mom wrote this for our team page:

Team Dar Dar Dar Welcomes you!

Dear Friends and Family,

I will be joining with thousands of people nationwide to walk in AFSP’s Louisville Community Walk to benefit the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. I would appreciate any support that you give me for this cause that has affected us all so deeply.

9 years ago this October I lost my big brother, Dennis Greene to a horrendous disease.
We all lost a fantastic person to a horrible and TREATABLE disease.
He was our brother, son, father, uncle, cousin, friend and so much more to so many more.

He was DAR DAR DAR!!!!!

Please come out and walk with me or consider donating a few dollars to the cause!
(All donations are 100% tax deductible)

The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention is at the forefront of research, education and prevention initiatives designed to reduce loss of life from suicide. With more than 33,000 lives lost each year in the U.S. and over one million worldwide, the importance of AFSP’s mission has never been greater, nor our work more urgent.

Donating online is safe and easy! To make an online donation please click my name at the bottom of this page.
Thank you and I appreciate every single one of you <3


So important to raise awareness for this.
I know. I’ve been there. I’ve felt this way.
Raise awareness. And be there for somebody.
Open your eyes that little bit wider ;)


So important to raise awareness for this.

I know. I’ve been there. I’ve felt this way.

Raise awareness. And be there for somebody.

Open your eyes that little bit wider ;)

lookingforaplacetobelong:

For anyone out there. Please reblog this, you might save a life. &lt;3

lookingforaplacetobelong:

For anyone out there. Please reblog this, you might save a life. <3

bobomama:

1-800-273-TALK (8255)
 Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696 
 Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433 
 LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255 
 Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 
 Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743 
 Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438 
 Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673 
 Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272 
 Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000 
 Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253 
 NOTE: These are American numbers

bobomama:

1-800-273-TALK (8255)

  • Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696 
  • Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433 
  • LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255 
  • Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 
  • Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743 
  • Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438 
  • Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673 
  • Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272 
  • Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000 
  • Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253 
  • NOTE: These are American numbers

Click here to save a life - it could be YOUR own

bobomama:

Please click here and educate yourselves - you could save the life of a friend or family member…you may even save your own life - PLEASE read: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/whattodo.htm

Today is International Survivor of Suicide Day
It is a day of healing and awareness around the world.
If you would like to take part in healing conferences, please click here: http://www.afsp.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=home.viewPage&page_id=FEE7D778-CF08-CB44-DA1285B6BBCF366E



  • Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696 
  • Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433 
  • LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255 
  • Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 
  • Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743 
  • Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438 
  • Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673 
  • Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272 
  • Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000 
  • Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253 
  • NOTE: These are American numbers

It’s okay to ask for help!!

dailyfatspiration:

TW: suicide, bullying, fat phobia etc.

This video is amazing.

Relevant to my last post!!

(Source: hxc-ratchet)

phxpsyd:

Depression, Suicide
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-SUICIDE (2433) – Can use in US, U.K., Canada and Singapore
Suicide Crisis Line: 1-800-999-9999
National Suicide Prevention Helpline: 1-800-273-TALK (8245)
National Adolescent Suicide Helpline: 1-800-621-4000
Postpartum Depression: 1-800-PPD-MOMS
NDMDA Depression Hotline – Support Group: 1-800-826-3632
Veterans: 1-877-VET2VET
Crisis Help Line – For Any Kind of Crisis: 1-800-233-4357
Suicide &amp; Depression Crisis Line – Covenant House: 1-800-999-9999
Abuse
National Child Abuse Helpline: 1-800-422-4453
National Domestic Violence Crisis Line: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
National Domestic Violence Hotline (TDD): 1-800-787-32324
Center for the Prevention of School Violence: 1-800-299-6504
Child Abuse Helpline: 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453)
Domestic Violence Helpline: 1-800-548-2722
Healing Woman Foundation (Abuse): 1-800-477-4111
Child Abuse Hotline Support &amp; Information: 1-800-792-5200
Women’s Aid National Domestic Violence Helpline: (UK Only) 0345 023 468
Sexual Abuse Centre: (UK Only) 0117 935 1707
Sexual Assault Support (24/7, English &amp; Spanish): 1-800-223-5001
Domestic &amp; Teen Dating Violence (English &amp; Spanish: 1-800-992-2600
Addiction
National Association for Children of Alcoholics: 1-888-55-4COAS (1-888-554-2627)
National Drug Abuse: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
Al-Anon/Alateen Hope &amp; Help for young people who are the relatives &amp; friends of a problem drinker): 1-800-344-2666
Alcohol/Drug Abuse Hotline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
Be Sober Hotline: 1-800-BE-SOBER (1-800-237-6237)
Cocaine Help Line: 1-800-COCAINE (1-800-262-2463)
24 Hour Cocaine Support Line: 1-800-992-9239
Ecstasy Addiction: 1-800-468-6933
Marijuana Anonymous: 1-800-766-6779
Youth &amp; Teen Hotlines
National Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663
Youth America Hotline: 1-877-YOUTHLINE (1-877-968-8454)
Covenant House Nine-Line (Teens): 1-800-999-9999
Boys Town National: 1-800-448-3000
Teen Helpline: 1-800-400-0900
TeenLine: 1-800-522-8336
Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663 or 1-800-422-0009
Runaway Support (All Calls are Confidential): 800-231-6946
Child Helpline: (UK Only) 0800 1111
Kids Helpline (Australia) 1800 55 1800
Pregnancy Hotlines
AAA Crisis Pregnancy Center: 1-800-560-0717
Pregnancy Support: 1-800-4-OPTIONS (1-800-467-8466)
Pregnancy National Helpline: 1-800-356-5761
Young Pregnant Support: 1-800 550-4900
Gay and Lesbian Hotlines
The Trevor Helpline (For homosexuality questions or problems): 1-800-850-8078
Gay &amp; Lesbian National Support: 1-888-THE-GLNH (1-888-843-4564)
Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender (GLBT) Youth Support Line: 1-800-850-8078
Lesbian &amp; Gay Switchboard: (UK Only) 0121 622 6589
Lothian Gay &amp; Lesbian Switchboard – Scotland: (Scotland Only) 0131 556 4049
Other Hotlines
Self-Injury Support: 1-800-DONT CUT (1-800-366-8288) (www.selfinjury.com)
Eating Disorders Awareness and Prevention: 1-800-931-2237 (Hours: 8am-noon daily, PST)
Eating Disorders Center: 1-888-236-1188
Help Finding a Therapist: 1-800-THERAPIST (1-800-843-7274)
Panic Disorder Information and Support: 1-800-64-PANIC (1-800-647-2642)
TalkZone (Peer Counselors): 1-800-475-TALK (1-800-475-2855)
Parental Stress Hotline: 1-800-632-8188
National AIDS Helpline: (UK Only) 0800 567 123

phxpsyd:

Depression, Suicide

  • Suicide Hotline: 1-800-SUICIDE (2433) – Can use in US, U.K., Canada and Singapore
  • Suicide Crisis Line: 1-800-999-9999
  • National Suicide Prevention Helpline: 1-800-273-TALK (8245)
  • National Adolescent Suicide Helpline: 1-800-621-4000
  • Postpartum Depression: 1-800-PPD-MOMS
  • NDMDA Depression Hotline – Support Group: 1-800-826-3632
  • Veterans: 1-877-VET2VET
  • Crisis Help Line – For Any Kind of Crisis: 1-800-233-4357
  • Suicide & Depression Crisis Line – Covenant House: 1-800-999-9999

Abuse

  • National Child Abuse Helpline: 1-800-422-4453
  • National Domestic Violence Crisis Line: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
  • National Domestic Violence Hotline (TDD): 1-800-787-32324
  • Center for the Prevention of School Violence: 1-800-299-6504
  • Child Abuse Helpline: 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453)
  • Domestic Violence Helpline: 1-800-548-2722
  • Healing Woman Foundation (Abuse): 1-800-477-4111
  • Child Abuse Hotline Support & Information: 1-800-792-5200
  • Women’s Aid National Domestic Violence Helpline: (UK Only) 0345 023 468
  • Sexual Abuse Centre: (UK Only) 0117 935 1707
  • Sexual Assault Support (24/7, English & Spanish): 1-800-223-5001
  • Domestic & Teen Dating Violence (English & Spanish: 1-800-992-2600

Addiction

  • National Association for Children of Alcoholics: 1-888-55-4COAS (1-888-554-2627)
  • National Drug Abuse: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
  • Al-Anon/Alateen Hope & Help for young people who are the relatives & friends of a problem drinker): 1-800-344-2666
  • Alcohol/Drug Abuse Hotline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
  • Be Sober Hotline: 1-800-BE-SOBER (1-800-237-6237)
  • Cocaine Help Line: 1-800-COCAINE (1-800-262-2463)
  • 24 Hour Cocaine Support Line: 1-800-992-9239
  • Ecstasy Addiction: 1-800-468-6933
  • Marijuana Anonymous: 1-800-766-6779

Youth & Teen Hotlines

  • National Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663
  • Youth America Hotline: 1-877-YOUTHLINE (1-877-968-8454)
  • Covenant House Nine-Line (Teens): 1-800-999-9999
  • Boys Town National: 1-800-448-3000
  • Teen Helpline: 1-800-400-0900
  • TeenLine: 1-800-522-8336
  • Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663 or 1-800-422-0009
  • Runaway Support (All Calls are Confidential): 800-231-6946
  • Child Helpline: (UK Only) 0800 1111
  • Kids Helpline (Australia) 1800 55 1800

Pregnancy Hotlines

  • AAA Crisis Pregnancy Center: 1-800-560-0717
  • Pregnancy Support: 1-800-4-OPTIONS (1-800-467-8466)
  • Pregnancy National Helpline: 1-800-356-5761
  • Young Pregnant Support: 1-800 550-4900

Gay and Lesbian Hotlines

  • The Trevor Helpline (For homosexuality questions or problems): 1-800-850-8078
  • Gay & Lesbian National Support: 1-888-THE-GLNH (1-888-843-4564)
  • Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender (GLBT) Youth Support Line: 1-800-850-8078
  • Lesbian & Gay Switchboard: (UK Only) 0121 622 6589
  • Lothian Gay & Lesbian Switchboard – Scotland: (Scotland Only) 0131 556 4049

Other Hotlines

  • Self-Injury Support: 1-800-DONT CUT (1-800-366-8288) (www.selfinjury.com)
  • Eating Disorders Awareness and Prevention: 1-800-931-2237 (Hours: 8am-noon daily, PST)
  • Eating Disorders Center: 1-888-236-1188
  • Help Finding a Therapist: 1-800-THERAPIST (1-800-843-7274)
  • Panic Disorder Information and Support: 1-800-64-PANIC (1-800-647-2642)
  • TalkZone (Peer Counselors): 1-800-475-TALK (1-800-475-2855)
  • Parental Stress Hotline: 1-800-632-8188
  • National AIDS Helpline: (UK Only) 0800 567 123

(Source: the-healing-nest)

ask-the-mighty-thor:

Odin’s beard — why would you want such a thing, Greyface?
That is … that is conceding defeat!
This life is but an endless battle, you see! It is forever attempting to mock you, to best you; battle after battle, it is a vicious cycle. But you must not let it triumph over you! I know you are braver than that — I know that you have the capability to be the strongest warrior Midgard has ever seen!
When all seems lost, always remember to scrape yourself from the unforgiving earth and remind Life that it shall not be victorious. Not while there is air in your lungs, and blood ever-coursing through your veins!  
And, Greyface — never forget that you always have a friend and ally in myself. That is essential, in this battle. Allies. One cannot win a war alone.
And you have one in me. I swear it to you.

ask-the-mighty-thor:

Odin’s beard — why would you want such a thing, Greyface?

That is … that is conceding defeat!

This life is but an endless battle, you see! It is forever attempting to mock you, to best you; battle after battle, it is a vicious cycle. But you must not let it triumph over you! I know you are braver than that — I know that you have the capability to be the strongest warrior Midgard has ever seen!

When all seems lost, always remember to scrape yourself from the unforgiving earth and remind Life that it shall not be victorious. Not while there is air in your lungs, and blood ever-coursing through your veins!  

And, Greyface — never forget that you always have a friend and ally in myself. That is essential, in this battle. Allies. One cannot win a war alone.

And you have one in me. I swear it to you.

missgingerlee:

fuckyeah-nerdery:

“I got a fan letter from a young lady. It was a suicide note.

So I called her, and I said, “Hey, this is Jimmy Doohan. Scotty, from Star Trek.” I said, “I’m doing a convention in Indianapolis. I wanna see you there.”

I saw her — boy, I’m telling you, I couldn’t believe what I saw. It was definitely suicide. Somebody had to help her, somehow. And obviously she wasn’t going to the right people.

I said to her, “I’m doing a convention two weeks from now in St. Louis.” And two weeks from then, in somewhere else, you know? She also came to New York - she was able to afford to got to these places. That went on for two or three years, maybe eighteen times. And all I did was talk positive things to her.

And then all of the sudden — nothing. I didn’t hear anything. I had no idea what had happened to her because I never really saved her address.

Eight years later, I get a letter saying, “I do want to thank you so much for what you did for me, because I just got my Master’s degree in electronic engineering.”

That’s…to me, the best thing I’ve ever done in my life.”

If you don’t love Jimmy Doohan, then there is something seriously wrong with your head.

All my creys.

(Source: lesliecrusher)

tw: suicide

I would wake up from the best sex of my life only to find people I used to call a friend talking shit on Facebook about how “selfish” suicide is.

I’m going to post my rant here so that anyone who’s curious how I feel about the matter can be ~in the know~

If you made a post today about how “selfish” suicide is, you cannot be my friend, here on Facebook or in “real life.”

You are obviously blessed enough to not know what it’s like to wake up each day hoping to die at someone else’s hands, or by some freak accident, or via a health emergency, simply so you don’t have to do the deed yourself.

You have never lived a life that you wished would end every second, simply so the pain would end, and you have NO RIGHT to say such despicable things about a) another human being, b) a mentally ill person, c) a complete stranger whose character you have NO insight into.

Seriously, if you think “selfish” is in any way an accurate way to describe taking one’s life, please Unfollow me now and do me the courtesy of not engaging my Ask ever. We cannot be friends. Period.

It’s really hard not to take shit like that personally, ya know?

Like…

…now I know, if I killed myself tomorrow, exactly what quite a few people in my life would think.

They wouldn’t have compassion, or sympathy, or even pity.

They’d call me selfish.

They’d vilify me.

And for today, my knowing that is good, because it makes me want to LIVE.

SUICIDE IS NOT SELFISH

The pejorative, disrespectful, and ignorant statements that we are assaulted with concerning suicide angels are in abundance…and are disquieting to cope with on a daily basis.

You’ve heard them many times, statements about suicide being “a sin,” “a crime,” “an act of self-murder,” etc. Well, let me address one more ignorant statement – that suicide is a “selfish” act.

WRONG.

Suicide is a desperate act by someone who is in intense pain and wants their pain to stop. That is a HUMAN response to extreme pain, not a selfish one. And over 90 percent of the people who die by suicide have a mental illness at the time of their death, so they are not thinking clearly.

Saying that a person who had severe clinical depression, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, PTSD, or a similar illness was engaging in an act of selfishness when they died by suicide – even though their thought process, mood, and judgment were greatly affected by their mental illness – is not only inaccurate, but downright cruel, to both the suicide angel and the suicide survivors.

And those who use the word “selfish” are merely helping perpetuate the STIGMA associated with suicide.

A suicidal action that manifests from intense, excruciating, unbearable pain associated with a serious mental illness has nothing to do with selfishness. Period.

by Kevin Caruso

jinxasaurus replied to your post: shaking with rage how fucking dare you I hate…

:( … <3?

As quickly as I can tell it, the story is, a young man I went to school with killed himself this weekend. A “friend” on Facebook posted something along the lines of “I don’t understand why people take their own life” and I explained that the many times I tried it was because I a) wanted to end my pain and b) wanted to stop being a burden on those I love.

A friend of hers went on and on about how selfish suicide is, despite my linking her to that SUICIDE IS NOT SELFISH post. I went on to talk about depression, to which she replied “I had depression and it took a lot of prayer but I pulled myself out of it.” Before I could reply all of my comments were erased, so I posted one last “fuck y’all, I’m out” vibed comment and Unfriended the one of them I had very recently added to not only my Friend list, but also the 10 year reunion after party event.

There is no way I’m letting someone who literally erases my lived experience in lieu of personal comfort into my motherfucking house.